Trust. Something I thought I’d lost for good years ago. Something that was so broken I thought all I could do was pick up the pieces, lock them up, and throw away the key. I closed my heart and refused love from anyone, including myself. Years later, I found myself completely empty and isolated. The efforts that in my mind were protecting me were actually draining me.
An emotional and physical rock bottom lead me to find my spirituality and my yoga practice. I was introduced to my higher self, finally able to open up to others- even if it felt alien and forced at first, it was a step forward. I slowly started to come out of the darkness and realize I am deserving of love from my community of friends and family, but most of all myself.
I began to break down the walls made of inferiority, insecurity, and fear then I started to rebuild them with trust. Trust in myself, others, and something much, much bigger than any of us. I started to believe that each person or experience in my life, good or bad, was put there for a reason: for my soul to grow.
Trust is one of the hardest things to restore and sometimes when things don’t go my way I want to hide behind the walls that were once so familiar and comfortable. But I won’t do it. I won’t do it because I trust in the plan, I trust in myself, and I have watched, and experienced the evolution of my very own soul by allowing myself to have an open heart.
Trust isn’t the enemy. Trust allows you to experience life on an entirely different level, allowing beauty and love to swarm in from each and every direction. Coming from someone who thought she could never trust again, I promise…it’s worth it. You are right where you are meant to be.
With love and light,
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